Because I care. I do. Maybe therefore it itches me so much to find out. Or not find out for the fear of unknown repercussions !
My taang to whoever it is who said "either ways I'll find a way, or make one!"
Really???
Honestly speaking, do people actually do that?
Call it no courage or lack of spontaneity, I give up. Maybe I should have long ago, because I secretly know I can't ! :-/ :-S

P.S. :-

"Applying fears to hopes, and hopes to fears,
Still losing when I saw myself to win!"
---- Will - Sonnets.

"Solitude scares me. 

It makes me think about love, death, and war.

I need distraction from anxious, black thoughts."
---- Brigitte Bardot.