I've officially lost "it" !!

Yes, I have! To begin with I didn't have much anyways. But off late, I feel like I have really lost it. If you are scratching your head, then here it goes. The "it" is nothing but my "sanity" :-D

Not very long ago, I had undergone some level of discomfort about the fact that there was no company to socialize and talk about matters that mostly amount to nothing but garbage :-P. So I started a club in my own head. We meet all through the day, have reruns of the jokes that had occurred in the past, jokes that we read about or saw on some show or the ones we overheard/heard from other people's conversations or witnessed a funny event or jokes that are cracked in my parallel world while I'm still conversing with people in a group, etc etc and the list goes on. This kept me occupied and the entertainment value was stellar for sure. The downside of it all was, or still is, that its kind of uh.....hmm......uhhhhhh......ooo.....uhh....ummm....odd, there! I said it ! Yes, it comes off as being a freak show altogether. Of course, we do not care about such notions or firm opinions in other people's heads. Nevertheless, this constant need to conform to the societal norms of behaving normally distracts me sometimes. But I have mastered the art of ignorance is bliss.

The past few days have been hilarious. Hilarious in my head. This is not hilariousness shared with others over a common joke or event. I'm mostly far from it. I have officially lost it, and I'm just not capable of holding or containing a laughter riot inside my head anymore. And so this inability to suppress of course has become more transparent than ever. I just plainly sit by myself and laugh out loud continuously in intervals of every fifteen minutes. The good thing is I'm happy and excited all the time. But the bad thing being, "whats up with you man?" or "what just happened?" or "are you feeling ok?" or the grotesque question mark/surprised expressions, etc etc. 

I wonder then that the world has become so messed up that a person like me can't even peacefully laugh by myself if I wanted to. I mean, I'm not going around bad mouthing others, or calling them names, or behaving badly or disturbing intentionally or affecting their lives in some way. It is so important to join the bandwagon all the time. Be like the rest. I guess therefore you don't get a ride. Because the sense of belonging in a gang is lost. Whatever. Who cares (chuckles) :-P :-D? I don't mind being stationed right where Iyyam :-)

I’ll give you $1 for them !! :-D

Chandler: Oh my God that’s it, that’s the ring! How much is it?

Phoebe: Chandler, I-I will handle this! (To the jeweler) How much is it?

Jeweler:: 8,600.

Phoebe: We will give you $10.

Jeweler:: Are you interested in this ring?!

Chandler: Yes! Yes, but I can only pay $8,000.

Jeweler:: Okay, I can let it go at eight.

Phoebe: We stand firm at $10.

Jeweler:: (to Chandler) How would you like to pay?

Chandler: Uh, credit card. Oh no! No-no, but I left my credit card with Joey. (to Phoebe) Okay, I’ll go get it. You guard the ring.

Phoebe: Okay. (to the jeweler) Listen, I’m sorry about before. Do you have anything her for $10?

Jeweler:: Uh yes, I have these two rather beautiful $5 bills.

Phoebe: I’ll give you $1 for them.

If You're Happy and You Know It :-D

If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it then your face will surely show it.
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. (clap clap)

If you're happy and you know it stomp your feet. (stomp stomp)
If you're happy and you know it stomp your feet. (stomp stomp)
If you're happy and you know it then your face will surely show it.
If you're happy and you know it stomp your feet. (stomp stomp)

If you're happy and you know it nod your head. (nod nod)
If you're happy and you know it nod your head. (nod nod)
If you're happy and you know it then your face will surely show it.
If you're happy and you know it nod your head. (nod nod)

If you're happy and you know it shout "Hooray!" (Hoo-Ray!)
If you're happy and you know it shout "Hooray!" (Hoo-Ray!)
If you're happy and you know it then your face will surely show it.
If you're happy and you know it shout "Hooray!" (Hoo-Ray!)

If you're happy and you know it do all four. (stomp nod Hoo-Ray!)
If you're happy and you know it do all four. (clap stomp nod Hoo-Ray!))
If you're happy and you know it then your face will surely show it.
If you're happy and you know it do all four. (clap stomp nod Hoo-Ray!))

Holi !

Holi used to be my favourite festivals for the longest times. It still is. But lack of company to play this "rango mein ghul mil jao" festival has left me all sulking. I used to run around till late afternoons with eggs and tomatoes smashed onto my head apart from the usual discoloured/ coloured self :-D
Even the thought of old times holi days gives me goose bumps now.
I hope most people I know, who also love this festival, had fun today :-)

A: But you don't have a cat !
B: I could have a cat ... o_O

:-P

Today was one of those days when I revisited my favorite phrase "many a true word is spoken in a jest".

Sometimes a stark and intentional remark spoken in a jest stings you. For whatever reasons, you begin to think of the same dialogue you shared earlier in the day over and over again. Each time you ponder why did they say that, what did they mean, why? and it finally becomes a a moo point (courtesy, joey from friends). But deep within you know why it was said. I guess its the unwillingness to accept the phrase as it is. Denial of the fact that maybe they indeed meant it. It is plain refusal to attribute a reason as to why you didn't do something about it. Why wasn't something said in return.

I guess we make our choices of what we want to be in split seconds in such times. However, the choice made could be interpreted differently by different people. But what the heck. We are mostly happy with our choices. Even if we aren't, the moment is lost and no more progress can be done on it. Ultimately, that split second does seem important! Take your time and be wise for a split second is all I can say! After all we are not asking for a lifetime in such situations.

Random Wonders !

I have been a thorough biologist for the longest of times. Basically, in other words, I have been pretty much ignorant of a lot of things other than that. I was just thinking about how narrow my sphere of thinking is.

I know nothing about the stars, the constellations or the anything to do with astrophysics. I have no clue what kind of questions they ponder on! Nothing, absolutely nothing. It is not just astrophysics, take for example anthropology, economics, sociology, languages, maths, theatre arts, etc. Of course, one might say you don't have to know everything, but then isn't it being a little too clueless about the rest of the world? I feel dumb a lot of times when I sit in my department. There are these innumerable questions that are poured in time and again from several perspectives. There are so many dimensions and levels in which one can look at the same problem, widen your horizons. But I feel handicapped and mentally challenged when at times there is no thought process that is triggered about what someone says or suggests. 

I never sit and think about the cultural issues or its impact on the social structure, or the effect of social structure on domestic lives and the choices you are inclined to or sometimes forced to make. One might sum up and say it is something that has to be driven from within. If you don't feel strongly enough then chances are you might not do anything about it. I'm sorry to say this but I disagree to a certain extent about it. How can anyone subject any length of insults to a parent when all they have done is look after you or been your rigid support and redrew their lines to accommodate you. But on the other hand, it is your life, you at least owe it to yourself to make you happy. I guess this is what they mean by calling certain beings as ABCD. Iyyam a confused desi born in the same des. I wish things change. I wish there is more choice. I wish there is more liberty and less of mental and emotional burden due to societal pressures. I wish there is a life that I can live simply based on my terms. I wish I can be the way I want to. I wish I could say I think therefore I am!

Kuch nai sochthi karke accha ich likh daala meine, none of it which amounts to anything useful for sure! ahahhaa....Like the title says, these are some random wonders. Nothing more, nothing less.

There never was a normal episode ever ! It has to be funny each time. And ...And...AND ...it gets funnier each time too :-D

Mamihlapinatapai - word of the day !

In Yaghan it means "A look shared by two people, each wishing that the other will offer something that they both desire but are unwilling to suggest or offer themselves" !!

I came across the word while I was looking for something else on wiki. Seemingly it is the most succinct work according to The Guinness Book of World Records.
:-)

Communism, Marxism, Capitalism, Socialism ???
Never could understand any of it. Never bothered to read about them either!
Ignorance is bliss sometimes :-)
I have enough troubles reading about things that I kind of understand, leave alone the ones I that I'm not even aware of !
Speaks volumes about my enthusiasm for new things !! :-D

Deja Vous or History repeating itself ??!!

A cow was talking about deja vous today. I felt like really? I think it happens to me sometimes when I see some faces or when some vague events happen.

But "history repeating itself" happened today. I felt like I was sitting in my previous whereabouts with the same bunch of people in it. I wanted to bang my head somewhere!
I decided maybe I should try shooting range classes or something, to vent off my .....

End of the Blogathon !

Honestly I'm not very happy it has come to an end. I have been wanting to write everyday as a rule, not only for the blogathon but to have some notes up the wall about things that I think of in general. Like a diary full of notes on everyday life. The unhappy feeling is partly to do with the fact that I haven't really written everyday but instead wrote every two days.

I must confess that it makes me think of normal things. Not that I don't otherwise, there is loads of garbage loaded in my brain pipes :-P Its just that it was something I used to sit with shareefly and actually gather my rubble into a nice pile and present it. It makes me think coherently (because generally I always wander off in tangent directions!), stick to the point, but look at the theme according to different views, etc etc. Well, I might not have done it to the T but at least it gave me a good start. I don't think I would have done it otherwise :-)

Thanks to ........ for introducing me to the blogathon. I enjoyed it thoroughly! I'm really happy I did this. :-D ting ting ti ding !

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

:-) :-D :-P to all of mine !

In spite of being this belligerent self, I have had the beshtesht bunch of friends ever!

I met up with this cute bunch of people today, they are so much fun! It was a long day. Long day full of fun. Was happy being mean and cracking mental jokes and playing games.If I could have access to something of the sort at least once every week, I would have been a lot more saner in life (laughs, saner or whatever). But it has become something that is too much to ask for right now :-/

I really wish there was more time.