Just some Ignorable thoughts!!

I think its for the first time I realize what loneliness means. Especially so about when people quote about how you can have a 1000 people around you and still feel lonely. A friend wrote about meeting people who are family by choice and family by blood. What is this family? Is it someone who is with you no matter what? Is it someone who shares stuff with you? Is it someone who stands by you and vicariously suffers with you? Is it someone who has unconditional love for you? Someone who provides or fends for you? Someone who accepts you for who you are? What is this family? It is such a funny place this world. If you do something for someone, either the opposite person feels obliged to do something in return or cannot accept it as a thoughtful gift or rather diabolically questions the reasons behind such an innocuous attempt to make you happy. Worse are the kind who do things for others and expect something in return! I don't think I have it in me to face this faceless and pretentious world. But somehow I have always had signs, right when I stop having faith in some things or when I cannot take it anymore. There was a time when I would laugh at this "signs" concept as a kid. Over time I started believing in it. Co-incidental phrases, either from movies or random people talking or other situations of the kind, have always had a way of pacifying my thoughtful and pensive moods. Just when I was pondering about life and what it means and the purpose behind it, I watched this movie that inspired me to do something substantial. Right after that day, while remnant pessimism was still haunting me and while I continued to doubt this "sign" concept rather unwillingly, I watched another movie which reminded me about how I was in the right path then. Confession: I was watching Exorcism of Emily Rose :-P. NO. Not about the God delusion etc stuff. But about how sometimes of all the randomized events that could have occurred, you were at a point in life when you were at the right time and at the right place, in other words in the right path. 

I felt happiness is highly overrated. Now I feel peacefulness will soon join its bandwagon!